[Wishcasting] Listen

This week’s Wishcasting Wednesday prompt is “If you listen closely, what wish do you hear?”

Good Goddess — what a question. When I listen, I hear all sorts of things — but this isn’t a question about listening with the ears. It’s about listening with the heart, with the soul. And that’s sometimes the hardest way to listen of all. Oh, it can be easy at times — like when you’re heart-connected with someone, and listening for what is spoken between words, in breaths and silence both. But listening within… That requires a certain sense of openness with your Self, an honesty and a responsibilty. A kind of respect — to hold the space for yourself to move into, and let your breaths and silence speak.

I am not a patient person — least of all with myself. I am slowly learning the virtue of patience — but even so, when I still at will, and hold the space to listen for my wish today, I feel a rankle of irritation that the answer does not come quickly enough, that I will have to spend more than a just a few moments doing this.

And as quickly as that rankle of irritation occurs, it’s gone — soothed, released. I have dropped beyond it, deeper into my wombspace, my centre, and I feel the silence of that time and space expand from within to permeate my muscles and bones, tissues and organs. My body feels lighter. I feel calmer. Patient. At ease. More settled. Connected. I breathe, deep and even and real. I contemplate my breath.

There — in the spaces inbetween: that pause after an exhale, then again after an inhale. Comfortable pauses, knowing that the next part of breathing will happen regardless, and there’s no fear. In those spaces, I hear an echo — a rattle, a gasp, a memory. Myself, scant months earlier, wracked with pneumonia. Not quite knowing if I would need assistance to breathe that day or the next; not quite knowing if I would heal; not quite knowing what would happen if I didn’t. And, alongside that echo came comfort. Now that was unexpected. I was okay with the pneumonia, with the process my body was going through as it moved throughout my system. I don’t remember behind that comfortable or calm at the time of the pneumonia, mind, but I was experiencing that memory today. A cell-memory, soul-memory. Not conscious, but rather something felt rather than known. Something instinctive, raw, deep.

I let myself experience this for a time: the memory, the feelings. I experienced them, then let them go. And in doing so, came close enough to hear my wish at this time. I wish to trust. To have that complete comfort and trust in, and awareness of, my body as it experiences things that consciously, I do not register — so absorbed am I in my mundane comings and goings. I hear that wish, and I hold it gently, all too suddenly acutely aware of its power and poignancy. I feel tears prick at my eyes. The energy of this causes another rankle of irritation somewhere within me — how dare I feel upset? How dare I potentially ruin such a peaceful, heart-deep moment?

And again, as quickly as it’s there — it’s gone. Released. Soothed. My breath and my bones have wrapped around that irritation, and held it, eased it away. My body knows. It always knows. I just need to listen. I just need to trust.

As I wish for myself, so I also wish for you…

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